Has it ever
happened to you? It’s day 1 of your diet. Again. You have
the best intentions, you’re finally going to lose that weight and
be thin and happy and now your life will be perfect. Your first day
goes great. You’ve stuck to your plan 100%. Maybe another day or
two goes by and then, all of a sudden, you do something
“wrong”. You eat a cookie, a potato chip, it doesn’t
matter what it is, it’s something that defies the rigid rules
you’ve set up for yourself. And then, before you know it, there
you are in the middle of a binge.
You’re not necessarily enjoying
it, but it all happens so fast that it seems as though you were
possessed by some kind of binge monster! You’re eating furiously,
anything you can get your hands on. Foods that you don’t even
necessarily care about normally, but you can’t stop. You’re
eating and eating and eating and you can’t even taste the food.
It feels like it’s going down at 100 miles per hour, and you
still can’t seem to stop yourself.
And then. There you are. Full.
Disgusted. Ashamed. Angry at yourself. Depressed. So what do you
do? Do you call yourself self-deprecating names? Do you turn to food to
help you numb out the feelings of being disappointed in yourself or
even worse, hating yourself? Do you punish yourself by
restricting? Do you purge the calories by over exercising, taking
laxatives or vomiting?
It doesn’t have to be this way!
You can be free from the cycle of obsessive dieting and compulsive
eating. The following steps will help get you on the road to
Step 1: Delete the Word “Diet” from Your Vocabulary
Kinda scary, huh? Many people think
that if they cease to diet, that they will lose control completely. But
for many, it’s liberating.
Dieting sets up a precedent
that’s very difficult to stick to. Diets often recommend
that we eat only a certain amount of calories per day, some suggest
that we cut out whole food groups such as carbohydrates. If these rules
are somehow broken, it’s possible to feel like a failure, many
people feel as though they messed up the whole day and thus to go to
the other extreme and binge with the idea that they can compensate by
going back on their diet the next day.
Deleting the word diet does not mean
that you are giving up your aspirations of healthfulness. This is about
self-acceptance and recovery. You can accept yourself as you are in the
moment AND do things to help yourself to become healthy.
Step 2: Get to Know Yourself
Keeping a food and
feelings journal is tremendously helpful. This enables you to
understand when and why you binge. Perhaps you got some bad news on the
phone, or you had some kind of mini-traumatic event at work, maybe you
ran into a person who triggered some bad feelings that you have about
yourself. It’s difficult to know. Many people aren’t
even aware of why they are feeling bad. Keeping a journal can help you
to know what triggers your binges. Write down everything that you
eat for 2-3 weeks. In the margins, write how you were feeling. If you
binge, write that down as well. Write down things that happened that
day, write down what happened before the binge. Write down how you felt
after the binge. You are becoming an investigative journalist
uncovering truths about yourself. This kind of self-knowledge will help
you understand and recognize your triggers and thus enable you to find
options to stop a binge before they begin.
Step 3: Increase your Capacity to sit with Uncomfortable Feeling
Many people will compulsively eat or
diet soothe themselves, but how are you wounding yourself? Is it with
unkind words? Is it with food? Is it with restrictive dieting? If
you find yourself going for the food, first ask yourself, “am I
hungry?” if not, what else might be going on? “Am I angry?
Am I tired? Am I lonely? Am I bored?” Set a timer and see if you
can go ten minutes without the binge. During these ten minutes, write
about your feelings. Make a phone call to a loving, supportive, safe
person, or just sit alone and allow yourself feel the uncomfortable
feeling. As you learn to sit with uncomfortable feelings, set the
timer for longer. As the weeks go on, you’ll be surprised
at how long you might be able to postpone a binge. At first it might be
moments, but eventually it will grow to hours, then days, then weeks.
Step 4: Re-learn Your Cues for Hunger and Satiety
Children know when they are hungry
and when they are full. However, the nurturing mother, in her attempts
to nourish her child will usually distrust the child’s internal
cues and force the child to take “just one more bite,” or
to “clean your plate.” Clearly, these suggestions
were made with the best of intentions, however, many people grow up not
trusting their own instincts about hunger and wind up eating whatever
is on their plate regardless of whether they are hungry or not.
In the beginning of your recovery, it might be important to eat by the
clock to ensure that you are eating your three meals per day, however,
it is important to figure out when you are hungry and when you
hunger/satiety scale can help you to relearn your cues of hunger.
During at least one meal per day, rate yourself before your meal, half
way through your meal and at the end of your meal to figure out where
on the scale you are. Put your fork down, sit quietly, close your eyes
and tune into your body to see where you are, then rate yourself using
the following scale.
1 = You are starving, you have a headache, are dizzy, indecisive
2 = You are quite hungry, you are unable to concentrate
3 = You are feeling hungry and are ready to eat
4 = You are beginning to feel signals of hunger
5 = You are feeling neutral, neither hungry or full.
6 = You are feeling satiated and satisfied
7 = You feel full
8 = You feel stuffed
9 = You feel uncomfortably full,
10= You are stuffed, feeling sick, having to unbutton your pants.
Try to not to allow yourself to go
below a 3 and try to stop eating before you get to a 7.
It’s important not to let yourself get too hungry. Allow yourself
to snack on high protein foods such as string cheese or yogurt during
the day so that you are not ravenous when meal times come. This will
help to prevent bingeing.
Step 6: Get Support
recover with the help of therapist, group therapy or a 12-step program
such as Overeaters Anonymous or Eating Disorders Anonymous.
Many people use both. Having people
who are going through similar recovery can be very comforting. The
support is invaluable and having someone to turn to who is going
through the same thing as you are is a great way to talk through your
feelings and figure out what is going on instead of turning to the food
Step 5: Give Yourself Some Love, You Deserve It
Be patient and loving with yourself.
Progress is not linear. Many compulsive eaters are looking for a quick
fix. For every accomplishment it is possible to experience a set back.
But these set backs can be great information and learning experiences
to find a way to do things differently. Each binge can give you
information about yourself. Recovery time is slower and more
methodical. It takes time to unlearn all the negative feelings that we
have established about ourselves and do undo all the false beliefs that
we have about ourselves. Repeating daily affirmations are amazing
for combating such beliefs.
Some people say things such as
“I love myself no matter what,” or “I am loved,
loving, capable and strong,” each night several times as
they’re falling asleep. It can feel difficult or uncomfortable or
untrue at first. Do it anyway. It’s necessary to have ammunition
against the voices that are giving you negative messages about
yourself. Don’t let them win.